Recently I had my dear beloved Uncle Rhon up again for a visit to help me lighten the emotional overload of what myself and Jackson have been going through. And it’s working. He arrived Thursday night and was under the impression that it was Friday night for some reason- might be old age brain… 😉 Anyway, he was thinking a particular Thursday night was the night for the crazy meteor shower we were supposed to get and he told Jackson all about it. Well, the two of them stayed up till 2:00 in the morning talking about all things science: global disasters, atom smashing, planets and comets, Elon Musk’s SpaceX plans….You name it- they were locked in for hours and I moved back into my brain to gain a better look at what was going on in front of me. Jackson and Rhon left and went riding around to try and get away from the city light glare of Toronto and Hamilton, but unfortunately they didn’t see anything- well naturally- it was the wrong night, but it was meant to happen just as it did. The connection and the discussions and the love mushroomed- just like smashing an atom. I have a theory about that night and about the positive influence of men in the lives of boys and women in the lives of girls.
Jackson and I possess an amazing connectivity. I love him more than anything and we have great communication. But there is by nature itself a small disconnect by a divine plan. Our connectivity registers at about 90%. That 10% is crucial. That 10% is where a mother is not hard-wired to be able to understand and connect to an 11 year old son. That missing 10% is a very important part of the equation and can sometimes make all the difference. I imagine as Jackson gets older, the percentage difference will widen slightly as he is becoming a man. This is where the men in Jackson’s life are playing a crucial role. We have choices with our children when they are suffering. There are those men who connect well with children and who embrace the 10%. And there are women who fill in the space for young girls out there as well. I am blessed beyond belief at the abundance of role models and loved ones who are helping me connect those last percentage points to make Jackson feel whole again. My celestial public service announcement for you today and this holiday week: as we all venture out to do all things positive try and look around you and maybe without you realizing it, you are helping be someone’s 10% and know in your heart that you are making all the difference. Xoxo
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Reblogged this on Holly C Barker and commented:
As we move to a new chapter in our lives I wanted to repost this. I wrote this a short time after Jordon passed away and it is still very relevant today. Thank you for all the wonderful men who helped support Jackson this year and as we go into Easter celebrating with family, thank you for all the love and support! We love you very much!!