This site is dedicated to my spiritual and physical journey before and after the death of my husband and the father of my son from cancer. It is about grieving, loving, understanding and sharing, and living in the connection while accepting the physical separation that passing on brings. It is also about moving forward in your life from whatever challenges life hands you and living the life that is wanted for you from above.
All that is true in this world is not completely defined by statistical theory or by medical testing or study. There is no spiritual control group here on earth as we all have souls. There is no human placebo because there is Oneness, we all belong. We are all one and the same. Scientific understanding has ended in the past with the tangible. We, as intelligent humans are now testing and proving the science of quantum physics and our knowledge of everything is changing. This field of science is finding the truth that energy is in everything, including the intangible. Herein lies the meeting point of science and the divine. They co-exist as brothers creating what we know as life in the physical and life in the spiritual. Life is sourced energy that never dies and flows in and out of physical form, in and out of different dimensions, and love is at the core. Love is the most powerful positive energy and the source of it is God. We are all moving in that powerful magnetic direction towards this love through life. The Source, or God, is scientifically identifiable through our spirit in the form of our need to love and be loved. Think of it this way: We close down physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually without love. With it, we move forward. It’s spiritual and physical mathematics. It is quantifiable. Joy and love within the heart equals health and wellbeing. A lack of joy and love and connection with others equals sickness. Examples abound on this phenomenon. Look at babies who are left without connection to others in their cribs in orphanages or the elderly who live alone without care and interaction. What happens to these poor souls? Then think of a scene at a park with children and parents playing and enjoying a picnic. What do these two types of interaction or “lack of” teach us about health and wellbeing?
The truth is hidden in plain sight in all medical journals. Look at The Placebo Effect. When someone takes a placebo pill in a study and thinks they are doing something good for their body or mind, they often show a positive result in the outcome of the testing. How does one take a placebo blood pressure pill and reduce their blood pressure? It happens. How does one take a placebo antidepressant pill and feel happier? It happens. The mind is not playing tricks, and the blood pressure does go down. Why? Because we BELIEVE and that belief sends tangible energy and hope and emotion to the source of our souls and to our physical bodies to heal. This is the truth hidden in The Placebo Effect and in the study of quantum physics. Positive beliefs become things. There is real healing happening and we just look over it as a fluke, yet it happens over and over again, patient after patient, study after study. I love this truth. God gives us the power of intelligence to heal ourselves and to learn how to develop medicines to improve our lives. Medicine is good. Science is good. Medical studies are good. And so is The Placebo Effect and our ability to heal ourselves through believing.
Life is beautiful. It is a gift. Life gives us family and friends and happiness and sadness. Life and our experience awards us knowledge and learning and higher understanding. We have the ability to look out to the horizon, to dream about the future, and to reminisce about the past. We learn from past mistakes and hope for a peaceful and joyful tomorrow. But above it all, there is Today. Today is abundant. Today is here. It is the Now. Now is the focus of life; it is God’s gift to us and he sends his angels to remind us and to protect us.
Today is of the highest value. Speak your heart and live fully vested in the abundance of the day. Let your love stream through you like a waterfall off the mountains, falling and crashing into the hearts and souls of those around you waiting at the basin. Your impact on those around you is vast and your kindness and compassion radiates out like the sunrise over majestic mountain peaks. You truly are royalty. Your soul is noble. Your heart is pure. You are deserving of all things good.
Do not fear tomorrow. Tomorrow is a mystery for all of us. Fear robs us of today and today is precious. Everyday is precious. Bring your focus inward when dark skies cover up your sun. Focus in on your moments, your words, your love, your gratitude and feel it coming back to you one hundred fold. Be in the now, in your room, by candlelight and feel the loving presence of those around you both in the flesh and Spirit. Feel the protection of divine love and light. Know that you are never alone. The Light and the life you’ve built around you will never leave you.
It’s happening. Love is spreading everywhere~ silently, slowly, with great care and forward motion. Slow steady pressure. Humanity is starting to look itself in the eye and ask the real questions that matter. The reason is now we are connected as a human race. We speak on global terms. We know so much more about people, culture, and history than we did even fifteen years ago. We no longer have to rely on the news and history books and newspapers. We are all directly linked and connected and we are all beginning to understand how much we really are alike. We all love the same. We love our children. We all grieve and experience loss at some point in our lives. We bask in happiness on shorelines all over the world and enjoy good company and family and friends. The silent majority is sane and becoming vocal. We are stable. We love others. We care. The world is coming to a point where the chasm of good and evil is widening and the veils are falling down. We can no longer be fooled by those who try to create a false story of a whole group or nation of people as “evil” or wrong. We know better.
On a massive divine scale, there is a oneness of souls. We are all connected and moving forward in understanding and knowledge and learning that love is at the center of everything. The universe is calling us to understand energy and vibration through quantum physics as well as remembering the basic fundamental rules of life~ do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Science and Spirit are proving each other right, not wrong. There is a great merging of thought happening now and it is beautiful. Thoughts become things. We are so far advanced in our understanding of energy that we realize our minds have the power to create. Thoughts have mass. Energy transfers where thoughts go. It doesn’t die. Neither do we. We move forward in spirit and energy and join the Great Connection.
Sometimes a deviation happens in time and our free will and choices lead us down the wrong road both on a personal level as well as a global community. It has been too long but we are finding our way back. We as a global community need to embrace our differences, forgive on a personal to a global perspective in order to heal ourselves. It takes each one of us. We all matter. Our contributions to the greater good are vitally important whether they are in the form of time, money, energy, thought, prayer, hope, or kindness. We all have the power to tip the scale in our favor.
I rarely run across a conversation with someone who has not been tapped on some level by this energy that is circling the globe. More of us feel comfortable discussing the energy we feel within us and around us. Many of us are able to be open and tap into that energy and see farther, understand more, and share it with others. If this is happening to you, do not be afraid. Fear is only a request away from being gone. The answer to this entire discussion is simple. All the most important truths are simple. We just have to believe it.
Love conquers all.
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Escaping the Pinball Wizard~ Reblogging for the sake of trying to follow my own advice.
Every person on this plant is born innocent and good. There is no such thing as a bad baby. When we are born we are our core selves, undeveloped and new. We never lose that core, but the world comes in and influence takes over and we become a product of our environment and grow from the impact the world has on us. This collective human experience has impact and it creates a pinball machine effect into the world. Once we receive negative or positive energy from another it becomes kinetic energy and takes on a life of its own. The actions of others, both positive and negative, influence our decisions and thought processes. It is this action and our own reaction that takes us away from our true selves and we begin to divest…
It is the basis of healing. The ground floor of the elevator. The floor of the elevator comes to stop, you hear the bell “bing”, and the door opens. Your new reality awaits you. You step out and the sun is shining so brightly and you have trouble focusing. You feel a little confused and disoriented in terms of where you are now. You look around and start to orient yourself to this new view.
You know you’re in a building and you know you are okay. You are breathing and you can feel. You can see your hands and hear your voice. Life is not over for you. Your life is now different. 180 degrees. A paradigm shift in thinking has just arrived at the door of your mind. You realize your choices are now yours to some extent. You own them as they are not shared with the person who is not leaving with you out of this building. It is hard to leave because you came in together, and now you are leaving by yourself. But you do it. You do it because you have no choice. Acceptance is the key here. It is the key that opens that door to your mind to allow the paradigm shift in thinking to take place.
I accept what has happened. My mind is full of gratitude, love, and peace. I am going to allow some space for grief and sadness and I will give it away at the end of the day. I will breathe it out. It will not take root in my mind and leave me stuck in one spot. I am moving forward and looking ahead at my life. I have so much to be grateful for. Jackson. My home. My community. My friends. My family. My job. My health. My strength and new understanding. With acceptance comes healing. With healing comes happiness.
Taken from the “Adversity” chapter of 1,000 Little Things Happy, Successful People Do Differently
“Many of the most iconic novels, songs and inventions of all time were inspired by gut-wrenching pain and heartbreak. Therefore, the silver lining of these great challenges is that they were the catalyst to the creation of epic masterpieces.
An emerging field of psychology called Post-Traumatic Growth has suggested that many people are able to use their hardships and traumas for substantial creative and intellectual development. Specifically, researchers have found that trauma can help people grow in areas of interpersonal relationships, contentment, gratitude, personal strength, and resourcefulness..
When our view of the world as a safe place, or as a certain type of place, has been shattered, we are forced to reboot our perspective on things. We suddenly have the opportunity to look out to the periphery and see things with a new, fresh set of beginner’s eyes, which is very conducive to personal growth and long-term success.”
My perspective on this:
Sometimes serious adversity can be a gift to embrace. It is a springboard into action. With new-found courage, faith, and gut-intuition you can launch yourself towards your hearts desires and dreams knowing this is exactly what is wanted for you from above…
I just finished Lorna Byrne’s book Angles in My Hair. This video is about her experience dying during childbirth as she had a near death experience. Lorna is a NYT’s best selling author and speaker. She frequently meet with world leaders on many subjects including world peace. She is famous in Ireland as an angelic healer. I post this with gratitude, Lorna.
I have a guardian angel. We all do. I became keenly aware of mine the day Jordon called me to tell me to meet him at the cancer center because he had just found out he had advanced metastatic cancer. I have written about my guardian angel’s presence in the car with me on the drive over in my book. I had an hour drive by myself and I needed some support to get me there safely with this news heavy on my heart, mind, and body. Today I want to tell you about the pain jar he holds for me.
My guardian angel is more like a guide. He is Native American and he speaks quietly to me with light pokes with his arrows and gentle pats when something is happening that I need to take notice of. I don’t hear direction from him; he is just a large force I can feel that is keeping me moving forward, steadily. He is silent, but his love and compassion is great. Slow steady positive pressure is his way. But I know one thing for sure that he has shown me. He holds for me my deepest, saddest, most awful pain in a jar. Twice before Jordon died he opened the jar, just a touch, for me to experience what pure, raw, unforgiving grief feels like. The experience had me both times curl up in a ball and wanting to die. That pain, for just those two short times, drives me for the rest of my life to try to reach out and help others who live day to day with that gut-wrenching emotion of loss and despair. I know without a doubt that I would not be able to write, share, understand, or cope if I was living out that pain day to day. I know its there. I have felt it. And my heart breaks every time I meet someone who’s in the clutches of it.
The key to healing is to not get stuck in that pain and to move forward. That pain is the pure pain of physical separation from someone you love. It is the act of breaking a physical love-bond and it is excruciating. That person is no longer here to hold, to kiss, to hug, and to share with. The physical void has no relief or resolution to it. This, my friends, is a life experience that we will all go through at some point. No one escapes losing someone they love, unless you are the first to go. The key to passing over this pain is to live, breathe, love, and accept the connection and continuum of spirit and oneness that you have with that person and to oneness with all. Know we really never die, but just cross over. The only death is a physical death. When we really accept this as truth and live and bathe in belief, and notice the signs all around us, healing comes in and takes over and love and light fills the heart, mind, and spirit with joy and gladness and forward understanding of another time when we will be connected again. These statements have become cliché sentiments over time and are often over looked with simple comments from well-wishers to the point that people often see it as a glossy term of endearment or a generalized safe statement to the bereaved…..But truth often lies in the clichés. The truth really is~ till we meet again.
For Nicole, the waves you create impact my life more than you know. xoxo
This is no new story. The Ripple Effect has been told for thousands of years in many different forms. It is a beautiful, timeless analogy of what good deeds towards others have out there in the world. The effect is exponential in nature and the enormity of it usually goes without notice as we move through our busy lives. I saw this vision of the ripple effect soon after Jordon passed away. I saw him and his death as a lighthouse for others. To me and to others this experience was big enough to send waves across oceans and then the shores it touched sent the message back. You touched me, I touch you. The sharing of these loving waves back and forth, back and forth cause reverberations that never stop and span out across oceans and create impact wherever they go. It’s beautiful to see two waves crash in together and how they meld into each other, absorbing each other’s energy. Such is the act of intended as well as random kindness and good deeds towards others. When we show love, appreciation, and good will towards another~ we start the ripple in the ocean of life. That receiving soul then is moved and buoyed by that act and is impacted for the better. The energy moves on and through that person to the next and the next and those that are impacted also carry on the ripple. The expansion is limitless because when it reaches a shore it reverberates back. Karma is at play on the beach here, taking notice. The wave will come back to you~ sometimes in subtle ways that often go unnoticed, other times it crashes into us and carries us up the beach a ways laughing the whole way. When we learn to feel this and open our eyes to the expansive ocean and realize just how far our loving actions can carry out and the love that is returned to us we can live in a state of peace and happiness knowing that our impact in the world whether big or small is having its affect. Beach volleyball anyone?