You might think that holding on to the past to the heaviness of grievances and transgressions and negative energy of others that have hurt you is justified. We all look back from time to time at old wounds that were inflicted on us intentionally or unintentionally and feel the sting and allow the anger to simmer on. Our subconscious carries that burden in the recesses of our memories, yet we feel and carry the heaviness of it today. How do we truly go through the process of laying this down so our journey will be lighter? Holding on to this pain really affects us more than we realize. When we carry heavy negativity from the past in our backpacks with us, it forces us to take the roads and trails that we can only barely handle. We feel the burden and do not trust the higher, more lofty paths due to the acknowledgement that we can’t possibly make it with this heavy sack of emotions on our backs. This burdensome backpack of memories weighs us down causing us to keep our guards up on our paths as we move forward in life often times choosing roads and trails and paths that are easier, yet less rewarding.
The key to this journey is to lighten your emotional load. The way to do this is counter-intuitive. When we look back at what has happened to us we must place ourselves in the circle with those that caused us harm and to accept that we played a part in some way through our decisions and choices. This isn’t easy to do, but it can be done. When we give focus to even just a small amount to our part, and accept the outcome~ we assume and accept part of that energy that was created was ours. Believe it or not, by doing this, we lighten our loads, we do not add to them. This is not in any way an assumption of guilt. What it is though is a higher level of understanding as to why that person or circumstance was in our path to begin with. What were we seeking at the time? What was our focus? What really went wrong? Or was it just time to move on and learn and grow from the experience. If we stay on guard or continue to ruminate over the actions and words and deeds of others, this weight grows. It burdens our emotional and physical and spiritual wellbeing and can manifest into decisions of future paths that are not intended for our highest good. When we take on personal accountability for our part in past negative experiences we lighten weight in our hearts and minds. We rise above the finger-pointing and anger and blame. From a universal perspective anger and blame are much heavier substances than love, understanding, and forgiveness. We know this to be true because we all feel the lightness of a loving heart and a clear conscience. We also know the weighted feelings of blame and anger. One emotion builds while the other destroys.
Lay the past down if your backpack has grown heavy and is wearing you down and taking away your breath. Take a look back at the whole valley you have traveled through. See the beauty and the shadows. Admire the clouds, the sounds of the birds, the smell of the flowers, and feel the gratitude of the higher understanding of lessons learned. Ask for peace and accept all that was. All that is. Be open to all that will be with a hopeful heart.