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The Death of a Light Worker

/ Holly C Barker / Leave a comment

I was shocked.  Utterly shocked.  It was out of the blue for all of us fans.  I had been listening to Prince lately.  I had played several of his memorable songs recently and was contemplating how to incorporate them into a journal because his words and talents, skills and abilities to dive deep into the human condition resonate with me so much~ not just the words of his songs~ but the music itself was a language of its own.

Prince was a Light Worker.  His gift was communication through music.  His goal was for all of us to LOVE one another.  Pay attention.  Bridge gaps.  Question and rise up against that which we know is not true and is unjust.  He changed his name.  It’s hard to download  his songs due to how corrupt the music industry is right now.  He wasn’t just standing up for himself. He was standing up for all people with gifts like his.

I so admire that in him.

He spoke of seeing Angels.  He believed in God.  He lived in gratitude.  Said his prayers.  And never asked for much.  He was a huge philanthropist. And did so anonymously.  His love and his passion came out in the form of music and he shared it with everyone.  He was a crowd swayer.  We vibed to his melody, his voice, and his instruments.  He was a part of  our younger days and remained a favorite for so many of us.

I feel a real loss though.  I think many of us do.   We danced 8th grade slow dances with our first crushes to Purple Rain.  We had posters of him. We went to his concerts and watched him turn a disastrous, rainy Super Bowl into a classic amazing show. How fitting for him to show us in the midst of discomfort and life’s uncertainties~ we can dance and sing our asses off!!  And he helped us understand how it was okay to be unique, fun, and different.

I feel I took his presence in music for granted.  Its an odd feeling.  I never really felt like this about a famous musician.  We didn’t see the sum total of what he was doing; how he was living his life, how he was helping humanity on a large and small scale.  His good actions and deeds, his purpose and life should have been more in the forefront of what gets attention these days.  He was a model human being.  I wish he would have known the magnitude of love we all had for him.  Maybe he would still be with us mesmerizing us with his guitar and his eccentric ways.

Rest in Peace, Prince.  You were a kind, soft-spoken, generous, genius, amazingly talented gift to humanity.  You deserve to be remembered wearing the highest color of divinity.

 

 

 

 

 

2015 in review

/ Holly C Barker / 5 Comments

I wanted to send out the Year In Review for my blog to those that follow me. Viewer from 137 countries and approximately 5,500 people a month came to read.  Thank you for continuing to stay with me on this journey and know above all else- LOVE CONQUERS ALL and we must do our best and utmost to LOVE ONE ANOTHER!  I am truly hopeful for 2016 to be the year of at least 2 published books!  Gotta have goals, y’all!

Love and Light to Us All,

Holly

Here’s an excerpt:

The concert hall at the Sydney Opera House holds 2,700 people. This blog was viewed about 54,000 times in 2015. If it were a concert at Sydney Opera House, it would take about 20 sold-out performances for that many people to see it.

Click here to see the complete report.

All Equals One and One Equals All

/ Holly C Barker / 2 Comments

How to use the Ripple Effect to Change the World:

Its so simple.  So easy. There is no complicated mathematical equation.  Just a basic principle of All equals One and One equals All.

When we do a good deed towards one person, that effect is just as powerful as if we did it to all of humanity.  That is how to solve the problems of this world.  When we recognize the power that lies within one good deed towards the other, we realize we have the ability to change the world for the better.  One man can help one child.  And at the end of his life he wonders if he was good enough during his time on earth because he only helped one child.  And Spirit answers back.  That one child was Ghandi.  Or Jesus.  Or Mother Teresa.  Or Malala. Or any noble peace prize winner.  Or that child grew up to be a great parent, teacher, minister, or astronaut. See??  That one man, by helping one child, helped the world to be a better place. It is the Ripple Effect.

When we see this is possible…  And we realize that individually we all matter to the world?  Then we will truly understand the concept of All Equals One and One Equals All.

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Seek Out the Positive: Message to the Media

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We see what we look for. We hear what we want to hear. We believe what we want to believe.

We are all now glued to the news shows. The reports are on the terrorist events of recent, politics and campaigning, and how the world is responding. Are we stopping to think that there is a whole world out there where positive things are happening in response to these atrocities along side of this violence, hate, misery, and grief?  What is making us a society that wants to focus only on the bad? When did evil and hate and violence become the dominant topic of choice and not love, compassion, helpful acts, peace and sharing?  When did our good elemental human aspects fall out of favor in the media and our need to see the negative be allowed to overwhelm our senses of seeing, hearing, feeling, and knowing? Here is my humble perspective for what it’s worth….

I have turned on the TV very few times since Jordon died. Both times were to check the weather forecast or to watch a movie or two. Last week I was glued to the TV watching the violence unfold around the globe. Wow! What a different feeling I have now as I watch what is going on in the world. I feel like I just returned from a space journey to land in a new time. I’ve had enough to deal with on my own little planet with losing my husband to cancer last year and because of that other issues haven’t made my priority list lately. The murder and protests, the refugee crisis, and the state of the world economy that are being portrayed in the media are giving slant and focus to this negativity.  This is so telling of where we all are from a mental perspective nowadays. The media is so perpetually negative.  It’s not all their fault, as we seek to see what we must protect ourselves from, yet we create a skewed image that builds with time.  We are tuning in and plugging emotional energy into the negative and breathing quantum physical life into it all. We see negative images on TV or other media, feel it, and absorb it and some of that energy manifests into our beliefs and value systems. It grows there. We become acclimated to it and accept it as truth.

Well~ it isn’t Truth. We can change what we want to see and believe. We can turn our own minds away from this darkness we feel around us that is omnipresent in the media and into the light if we collectively want to. Negativity has manifested over the years in the media and there are those out there that want to maximize this fear and dread.  We have to stand up and stop this energy by the use of love and the need to see the good in the world.  We need to seek out examples of the positive. Focus on what we can do to be a more loving, tolerant planet for the greater good.   We can do this in a positive fashion with even greater possibilities of transformative manifestation. With personal intent we can refocus that which ultimately serves us better as people, friends, co-workers, families, neighbors, and the larger society.  We can change our worldly perspective.  Focusing on the positive, the giving, the support, the servitude even in the midst of hellish situations helps the roots of our mind grow to know that love will overcome these past two weeks.  Darkness and evil will not win, but they are trying like they never have before.  We must be aware of this and respect this energy as a reality.  BUT~ We, the Collective Human Race, will win this battle through positive acts and our core understanding that a benevolent God and the universe created us all.  We win through knowing that we are all good souls on this earth.  Together we will learn who we are, living together in peace and harmony and accepting and enjoying each others unique differences as has and always will be the intention of why we are here to begin with.  The media has the power to do this too.

Try to seek out positive examples and let its ripple effect flow into our minds and hearts.  Be that person this week that does something good for humanity whether it be big or small.  It all matters.  It all makes a difference.

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Ask and Ye Shall Receive on Heaven’s Watch, Not Ours…

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Last week was my son’s last football game for the season. It was an emotional day for many, many reasons. One being my son had done so well during his first season of football ever. I was so proud of him for making the team and for playing a starting position his first season of the sport in his life. See, I pulled him from hockey after 7 years of him playing it to move him back home to the south. He was ready for the change because hockey represented a heavy void in his life because his father passed away from cancer last year. He couldn’t think of hockey without feeling a terrible pain of sadness for the loss of his father. So instinctively we both knew it was time for a change to something positive without the intense, sad, emotional ties to the past. Some people did not respect my decision and did not ask for my son’s feelings about this decision that we both made. It was painful for us to not feel that support that was needed; they did not choose to ask or to understand why we would change our direction.

Along with this closing game of the season came a clarity and realization of the final weaving together of this book of mine that I feel is so long over due. What I did not realize was that it was this week that was supposed to happen as it did with perfect timing. Here’s how the day played out on Heaven’s Watch:

The morning of the gameday was special. There was a special gameday breakfast and I was anticipating the day and feeling hopeful for many things that are starting to come to fruition in my life. I got a call from my grief coach who is also a writer and a widow. I made the commitment to finish the book, was very fired up about it, and I gave myself a lofty goal date of the next week to finish the book. When I got off the phone with her I went onto my blog. I was going to hit 50,000 views that day!!! Pretty significant milestone in my book, so I posted a prayer request on my Facebook page telling my friends what was happening and asking them to pray for help from above and for support from family and friends. Well, I am here to say I got it. And in a big, BIG way later that afternoon!!

I went to my son’s game and after I got settled into my chair I looked up and saw an amazing cloud formation. The clouds looked like they were forming a tunnel. I saw the Light coming through. But all I saw was the tunnel. I felt very strongly I was supposed to take a picture because I could not take my eyes off the tunnel. I quickly snapped the photo with my camera phone and turned it around to look at it. This was the image I saw (look at the Angel standing on the cloud at the bottom of the tunnel):
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I was Dumbfounded. Speechless. Shocked. And Amazed. My Angel was there in all his regal beauty. He was there the day I asked for him, requested help from him in a public domain- Facebook that morning. He was watching over my son’s last game of the season. He was showing me that Divine Timing is on Heaven’s Watch, not mine. And this day was the day for me to write the purpose of this book. To reach out to all of you to let you know we really are loved. We have an inclusive, all-encompassing, benevolent, loving God for us all. All for one, and one for all. He does answer our prayers. But we must also be open and believe when we do ask. And we must understand that answer will come to us. It might be what we want to hear and know and experience. It might not. Sometimes our prayers are answered in ways we don’t see in the apparent. But we must have faith to know we are always heard and cared about. We need to be receptive to our intuition that God gave us. Our intuition is the gateway, the doorway, and the window to our connection with him. Don’t second-guess yourself. What you see, feel, and hear, and understand is his communication with you.

So, Heaven also has a sense of humor and loves to lovingly respond back when their communications with us are accepted and shared. So… I saw you Angel. I know you are a Messenger from God. And thank you for choosing me that day to be your conduit. I will share YOU with the world today and share your message with as many people as I can. And when I told him that, he smiled back at me.
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How to Lighten The Emotional Load You Carry

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You might think that holding on to the past to the heaviness of grievances and transgressions and negative energy of others that have hurt you is justified.  We all look back from time to time at old wounds that were inflicted on us intentionally or unintentionally and feel the sting and allow the anger to simmer on. Our subconscious carries that burden in the recesses of our memories, yet we feel and carry the heaviness of it today.  How do we truly go through the process of laying this down so our journey will be lighter?  Holding on to this pain really affects us more than we realize.  When we carry heavy negativity from the past in our backpacks with us, it forces us to take the roads and trails that we can only barely handle.  We feel the burden and do not trust the higher, more lofty paths due to the acknowledgement that we can’t possibly make it with this heavy sack of emotions on our backs.  This burdensome backpack of memories weighs us down causing us to  keep our guards up on our paths as we move forward in life often times choosing roads and trails and paths that are easier, yet less rewarding.

The key to this journey is to lighten your emotional load.  The way to do this is counter-intuitive.  When we look back at what has happened to us we must place ourselves in the circle with those that caused us harm and to accept that we played a part in some way through our decisions and choices. This isn’t easy to do, but it can be done. When we give focus to even just a small amount to our part, and accept the outcome~ we assume and accept part of that energy that was created was ours.  Believe it or not, by doing this, we lighten our loads, we do not add to them.  This is not in any way an assumption of guilt.  What it is though is a higher level of understanding as to why that person or circumstance was in our path to begin with.  What were we seeking at the time?  What was our focus?  What really went wrong?  Or was it just time to move on and learn and grow from the experience.  If we stay on guard or continue to ruminate over the actions and words and deeds of others, this weight grows.  It burdens our emotional and physical and spiritual wellbeing and can manifest into decisions of future paths that are not intended for our highest good.  When we take on personal accountability for our part in past negative experiences we lighten weight in our hearts and minds.  We rise above the finger-pointing and anger and blame.  From a universal perspective anger and blame are much heavier substances than love, understanding, and forgiveness.  We know this to be true because we all feel the lightness of a loving heart and a clear conscience.  We also know the weighted feelings of blame and anger.  One emotion builds while the other destroys.

Lay the past down if your backpack has grown heavy and is wearing you down and taking away your breath. Take a look back at the whole valley you have traveled through. See the beauty and the shadows.  Admire the clouds, the sounds of the birds, the smell of the flowers, and feel the gratitude of the higher understanding of lessons learned.  Ask for peace and accept all that was. All that is. Be open to all that will be with a hopeful heart.

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Trust and Understanding

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Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. ~Proverbs 3:5

How powerful and peaceful is this statement. Amazing, really. And so simple. The why question is always there in our minds when something tragic happens. The question comes so easily. We all want answers to life’s most difficult problems and hurdles. If we had some justification for the terrible things that happen out there in the world somehow, maybe we believe it would be easier on our hearts to endure. To trust the Divine without personal earthly understanding takes energy and focus on our part. It often times takes monumental paradigm shifts in thinking on our whole human experience and existence to overcome tragedy. But the simple truth is stated above~ Trust in the Lord with all thine heart. There are answers and there is a bigger picture that we don’t see~ if we don’t try. Our task in life is to become connected to this larger understanding. The answer is again very simple. Notice and believe. We all have a gate to wisdom and understanding placed into our hearts. We are all given a spiritual key of trust to unlock this gate and to be open to this wisdom. Free will and choice has been given to us as a gift and a test during our lives. We choose how to go about on our daily endeavours. We choose how we treat others. We make life-altering decisions on our own. When we accept this power that is given to us and use it for our highest good as well as those around us, we can move through this gate and into amazing understanding and peace with all that surrounds our lives. And again a simple Divine truth, Seek and Ye Shall Find. The answers really are out there; you just have to Trust.

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The Great Awakening

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It’s happening. Love is spreading everywhere~ silently, slowly, with great care and forward motion. Slow steady pressure. Humanity is starting to look itself in the eye and ask the real questions that matter. The reason is now we are connected as a human race. We speak on global terms. We know so much more about people, culture, and history than we did even fifteen years ago. We no longer have to rely on the news and history books and newspapers. We are all directly linked and connected and we are all beginning to understand how much we really are alike. We all love the same. We love our children. We all grieve and experience loss at some point in our lives. We bask in happiness on shorelines all over the world and enjoy good company and family and friends. The silent majority is sane and becoming vocal. We are stable. We love others. We care. The world is coming to a point where the chasm of good and evil is widening and the veils are falling down. We can no longer be fooled by those who try to create a false story of a whole group or nation of people as “evil” or wrong. We know better.

On a massive divine scale, there is a oneness of souls. We are all connected and moving forward in understanding and knowledge and learning that love is at the center of everything. The universe is calling us to understand energy and vibration through quantum physics as well as remembering the basic fundamental rules of life~ do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Science and Spirit are proving each other right, not wrong. There is a great merging of thought happening now and it is beautiful. Thoughts become things. We are so far advanced in our understanding of energy that we realize our minds have the power to create. Thoughts have mass. Energy transfers where thoughts go. It doesn’t die. Neither do we. We move forward in spirit and energy and join the Great Connection.

Sometimes a deviation happens in time and our free will and choices lead us down the wrong road both on a personal level as well as a global community. It has been too long but we are finding our way back. We as a global community need to embrace our differences, forgive on a personal to a global perspective in order to heal ourselves. It takes each one of us. We all matter. Our contributions to the greater good are vitally important whether they are in the form of time, money, energy, thought, prayer, hope, or kindness. We all have the power to tip the scale in our favor.

I rarely run across a conversation with someone who has not been tapped on some level by this energy that is circling the globe. More of us feel comfortable discussing the energy we feel within us and around us. Many of us are able to be open and tap into that energy and see farther, understand more, and share it with others. If this is happening to you, do not be afraid. Fear is only a request away from being gone. The answer to this entire discussion is simple. All the most important truths are simple. We just have to believe it.

Love conquers all.

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Putting it All Together

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The book is coming. I printed it all out last night and laid it out in front of me. The form and the flow fell together without hesitation. I am asking the angels and my two spirit guides to be with me this weekend as I weave the words and stories together to create a tapestry of family, spirituality, and moving forward through grief to achieve understanding, acceptance, peace, and connection.
We are never alone and we are all loved and cared for. As I sit quietly this weekend weaving, I will remember and feel and be happy in that knowledge.

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Triggers

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My memories of my pregnancy and Jackson as a baby and a young child are real triggers for pain and grief for me. It is hard to fathom how the best memories in your life become so incredibly painful while you are traveling through the process of grief. It is counter-intuitive to think the best times of your life create the most pain but that’s how grief works for me.

When I was pregnant with Jackson I used to wake up in the morning and I knew he was sleeping too. The minute I awoke I would sit up and enjoy the feeling of knowing Jackson was waking up too. We did everything together and it was fun to feel his little kicks and hiccups. The connection during pregnancy is nothing short of divinity at its highest level. And after he was born, his eyes and little hands and laughter were so beautiful and new. I was getting to know this miraculous little human being and seeing him react to the world under mine and Jordon’s care and devotion is burned into my most cherished memories. My memories of those early days fully include Jordon. He was a very hands-on father; gentle, loving, nurturing, and so patient.

I struggle putting the description into earthly words when the person you so intimately share those experiences with is now gone. It’s akin to having a falling dream where you are sleeping soundly and all the sudden you feel yourself falling backward and you grab onto the side of the bed to keep yourself out of the dreamy pit you envision behind you. Grief hits and you just have to absorb the punch. Your reaction cannot be to get out of the way, but to overcome the blow you just took out of nowhere. The impact knocks the breathe out of you and you have to fall back or sit down or excuse yourself for awhile and let the day seep back into your system. You must keep going. You must overcome the fall and get back up again.

Grief is powerful. I believe it is the most powerful, painful emotion one can experience in the entire spectrum of human emotion. It is the red zone past the black line. The goal is to breathe through it. Ground yourself and look forward to the end of the acute phase of the intense pain. Go easy on yourself; your body, mind, heart, and spirit just took a sucker punch and have faith that you will move past it. Life is not over and the rivers still flow, the sun still shines, love is still present, and peace will once again reign in your heart and mind.

There is no worthy explanation for this occurrence and I see no value in this experience so I refuse to try and make one up. For me, it is just a powerful negative experience that rips and tears and its up to me to bind and heal by asking my angels and God for help. That is what they are here for.

So now I place my celestial order to the universe. One order of help from above, please, with a side of acceptance and healing to go.   I need to move on from this horrible moment and I have no time to waste.

The response is, “Ask and you shall receive.”~ A pure, timeless, simple truthful answer back.

Thank you very much.

With Gratitude,

Holly